Hope Radio

Just came from a life celebration for a Galveston young man who was shot to death a couple of weeks ago. He was a good, kind young man full of promise killed by some bottom feeders, who have no idea what they have done. I hope they get to find out. If that sounds vindictive. Good. I was going for vindictive.

Yup. I interviewed today. I don't know how I did, but I answered from the cuff and I didn't care, if I made it past district or not. Four years ago I was on a growth plan at another school. The big bowl of suck stew was even steamoer because I had gone from being thought of as this great teacher to an insecure, blithering, nose bleeder with no boundaries. My fuck you was totally broke. What I know now is that it was a person's opinion of me. They made it hard to do my job. They put me down, bullied, even sabotaged. I did not have the resources I needed to meet their expectations. A terrible time yoked with my divorce, hateful, vindictive in laws and a new relationship had me looking for rock real estate cause i was crawlin'. My beautiful four kids and their well being as well as wondering if I was setting them up for psychological care took up the forefront. What I learned was that, opinions can be important, but more important is what YOU think, especially when the

I like parking lots. They are my snowglobes, only inside out.The outside world, all fluidity and movement and inside the car bubble, stillness and a kind of calm that comes from NOT being shaken up for effect, instead effect coming from not being. I could use more not being even if my not includes the occasional window splat from a seagull.

I started working out again today. Our jobs, the kids, our life on the island--it's been a busy few years and things have leveled off in some ways, but at the same time, I got fat. Not obese, but unhealthy. I'd say 35 or 45 pounds have got to go. I walked on the track and stretched. I'm not going the Crossfit way this time. It gave me a great body, but I'm 50 in January. I think if I tried it this go round, it would give me a hip replacement. I'm a still a slow learner, but maybe a little less slow than before.